In February 2019 my wife left me. She didn’t just leave me though. She told me she was no longer in love with me and there was no chance of us ever being together again. Every hope and dream I had for the future revolved around her and our relationship. The entirety of my self identity was built upon the foundation of our love, and in an instant it was replaced by an abyssal void. I was torn apart and rebuilt by pain so intense I couldn’t have believed it existed until it consumed me. It was then that I knew there was nothing left in this world for me, and the only thing I could do was kill myself.

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While I knew it was time for me to leave this world my exit plan was no simple suicide. My ego couldn’t let go of my wife or the love I maintained for her, so if I couldn’t have her in this reality I was going to build another one where I could. I planned to transcend human...